Monday, November 14, 2011

Today, blog a thon

Loool i have spent  the day resting listening to my mom have a good ole time with my active 3yr old. Its funny at times he will get mad cause she tells him to pick up the toys, then he says "I HATE YOU"  she would say that doesn't phase me boy, i head it at least 3x a day from your mommy..... then after 10 mins its "I love you".... I have learned when he says that to me i will tell him, well I love you, then its a shouting match of he hate me and i love him till he gets it out and come to me says mother i love you, really best words to hear......

I am focusing on Turkey Trot #Giveaway Hop. I love the hops that i can go from one page to the next.  I have got alot down that now i don't have to gfc everyone cause i already have or email them. My next goal is to start a blog roll of my own of who I follow on Twitter, Fb GFC, Network blog.... I have an Idea I will find a elec FREE roladex to store all that i have.

So all i have been doing is resting when i want to get up and jump around and be active but nope.... This week will be crazy i know i have court on 16th,17th and 21st and 22nd...... I'm trying to be positive and outgoing. I wish all this was over and DH is gone from our lives so we can move on.

I am ready to start a new life of my own... the one where i am the head of the household not some man....In the same time I'm afraid to fall, but as long as I keep my eye ahead and upwards, my heart in faith i will be ok.......

Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind - Dr Sessus

Sunday, November 13, 2011


Today is Nov 13 I have been out of the Hosp since Friday afternoon. I knew I was going to be in pain but didn’t think this much. I thought I would start my blog again. So let me re start by saying I am a Muslim woman.  My Blog is meant for me to vent, not to hurt or harm just to get the stuff from my head. Some of its nice and some not.

So today its been rough the pain its over whelming I can’t get out of the bed I can’t comfortable in the bed. My mom has been helping me as much as she can but its hard she isn’t in the best health herself and she was in a car wreack that totaled her car. I have guilt over that cause she came here to me.

I also sit her being very angry that my DH (Soon to be x) caused this injury and he gets to play free.  I know he is going with courts but he can walk, and he has money and he has “our” friends support. Mainly because of the community that we live in, me being white he being Arab and well im to keep my mouth shut and stand alone……

Hahahaha! That wont happen, I am a white redneck southern woman my mouth is big. It’s the one good thing I got from my mom I guess. All around me say I should not air our dirtiness and I have been trying but im sick of the pats on the back he gets. And well I get to be lonely. Its ok cause I truly believe in karma and that Allah/God will give some one their due….. well I guess its time to go for a while I think the meds are kicking in again. Kids went to a theme park to have fun so the house is quiet I should sleep….

I have gotten back in to my blog sweepstakes again so im happy hope I win a few laters

Sunday, October 2, 2011

where to start my vent and rage.

I am so upset i will sit and write more later im going thru a bad divorce found out somethings this week im so upset.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

so much drama.

i don:t think i have anyone who reads but a few peeps . so right now my post will be spradic . So only news is DH is out of the hm  for a while. i have such mixed feelings for this. i broke my leg, its on the left same side of the foot that i keep breaking.......... the end

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

New Age Mama and her sleep giveaway !!!!!

I am really looking forward to this giveaway From New Age Mama about the Sound Sleep Therapy machine its something I need I have such bad sleep habits and need something better to sleep to then drugging myself with tons of meds you can go to New Age Mama’s blog and lean more about the Product and the giveaway

Tuesday, July 12, 2011


Well ok update

Jul 4th we had the counseling and it went good, then afterwards went watch fireworks with the kids.

Jul 5-6 there was nothing really it was hot so I stayed in the house

7th was my birthday I was sad because my mom didn’t call me. However my dad He posted on my FB way telling me happy birthday. Had a fight with Dh as usual and had a cake joy to me I’m 35. Ok so I am not having the time of my life. This time of July I get very depressed and anti social with everything

Jul 8,9, was nothing but helping Dh with homework and laying in the bed.

July 10, this was the day that my daughter Gabby was born she would have been 11. Its hard Not knowing what that little life would have grown into. To top it all even I know that I don’t need more kids, and I’m still iffy  at wanting more but I’m hitting that I want a baby again. My health I shouldn’t, and DH he doesn’t want more. But to have a little girl…… yea so that’s been the depression of my week. I find my self dreaming and crying about it I feel so stupid and I dare not share it.  All my friends are having babies and my bro is due in a week for him and his gf to have their girl.

I did win a prize from Easy Daysies

Which made my day I can’t wait to get it I’m so excited to see it I really wanted it. It’s a magnet type planner that helps your kids keep on top of things.

Jul 11 was spent in the bed also with a migraine. I wish that I could just have a day where I’m not tired or in pain or depressed.

Today July 12 My mother in law got here this evening she was 4hrs late at meeting us after the stupid international part kept her for 4hrs. I know it wasn’t just here it was said it was crazy there so I know I guess. Waiting in an Airport with two kids isn’t fun for 5 hrs then we all were starved lool . We got Subway went home and here I am now typing . I am glad she is here I truly missed her I tell my DH all the time I love her more that I love you…… to be honest its true I love and have the greatest mother in law thank God

Ok now I will go help her unpack and maybe go to bed

Life is simple, it's just not easy.

Sunday, July 3, 2011

movies and movies, movies

So today i spent helping DH with his homework. The kids went swiming.  Then I went to get movies for free with blockbuster from some codes that I got from

Budget Savvy Diva!+Mail
they end on July 8th

I don't have much to say. Im just not in the best of moods. Joy for me. 
Tomorrow might be a good day god willing I hope. Me and DH start marriage counseling. I am not putting much hope in it, I know i should, but truly in my heart its not there. 
I am a tad worried of my friend that she has had surgery she is in my heart and thoughts. 
Well off to watch the movies. 
A Friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way 
you are